WARNING!!! THE CONTENT HERE MAY BE OFFENSIVE!!! TALKS ABOUT TERRORISM AND WARS!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!! ALSO, THERE'S SOME STUFF ABOUT DOCTORS AND CANCER, SO HERE IS THE SITE THAT I READ IT FROM!!!


http://www.cancerfightingstrategies.com/causes.html

 just recently, i had a discussion with my dad about terrorism, wars, and why those things keep happening. I've also just now read an article talking about how to kill cancer with natural supplements, but the doctors aren't allowed to tell. yes, it does sound like those fake articles that want stuff, but this was purely educational and had much and much information that a person out to get money wouldn't go around making up. in the war discussion, it started out about how the first world war started, since i forgot and couldn't remember, then it went into deeper depth. Has anyone ever considered why these kinds of wars start? It's not just because of Germany, or just because of Russia, or just because of America. It's because of the stupidity and stubborness of people. I've found out, that after WW 1, the countries around Germany put so many rules, regulations, codes, and laws on the poor country, that the economy went completely bankrupt. No wonder the Nazi showed up, no wonder the people supported the Nazi, no wonder Germany went crazy. It was because that kind of life was unbearable, to be told all these things that you can and can't do, to be restricted to the point that you start a war. BUT, even though Germany had a good reason to want revenge, there is no good reason to start a war. There is also no good reason for genocides, either. I never understood why one would kill another simply for the color of their skin, or the shape of their nose, or the color of their hair, or just where they were born. It's like shooting someone dead because their name is Bob, or Sally. I've also been told, that the reason why the Muslims and Christians hate each other was because of the Crusade stuff back in the 12th century (hey, i don't keep up with the religious stuff...). The cultures are completely different, and yet the people here criticize that oh, the muslims are evil, they're bad, they're dangerous (i have nothing against you guys....i even used to have muslim friends until they moved to another elementary school) I wonder if those people have ever really thought about what exactly they're criticizing. The culture was born from the desert, and made for the desert. I don't hate christians either, as i have friends who are also that, but....it's just people never think. They never go outside the box, out of the norm. They don't see how the world is quickly spiraling down into a bottomless abyss of pain, despair, greed, and cruelty. Why are there terrorists? What else can they be in their country? We're the ones against them, what do you mean why are there terrorists? It's too pathetic. I would say more on this topic, but i'm getting tired of it. The next one (last one) is about the idiotic greed that everyone has in the developed countries. I would understand if we were an extremely poor country, but this is riduculous. As i mentioned before, I have read an article i believe to be genuine (because there are such things) and I was horrified by what was not being done. The site shows and explains 11 ways to kill cancer. It's even cured people. I've read the 1st way, which was taking a certain kind of zeolite. it took me about 10-20 min. of reading, and i have a relatively quicker than average speed of reading. if one really thinks, who would go out of their way to make such a long article about one mineral, and then there's the other 10 ways. I've found that while chemotherapy and radiation do work, it's killing more than healing. I've already known about how cancer works and chemotherapy, but i didn't know that the immune system played such an important role in both. apparantly, if one already has cancer they already have a weak immune system, since it has to keep working to try to kill off as much cancer cells it can. the problem is, is that chemotherapy makes it even worse, along with killing off even more cells than necessary. the mineral i mentioned was one that can effectively kill cancer cells and stay away from healthy cells, and the site explains how it works. why isn't this out in the market, for all those who are suffering and in pain, and why didn't the doctors say anything? easy. it's not in the market because it is a completely natural substance, and so companies can't patent that. plus, the doctors don't say anything is because either they don't know, or they're not allowed to. stupid insurance/market companies. they would allow millions of people to die when they have another shot at fighting for life, because they won't get the profit. they make millions of dollars from expensive and ineffective (or effective, depending on the person) medicine, when there's such a medicine available through the aforementioned site above. well, my shoulder hurts and I don't feel like ranting anymore.

i went to bed really late last night, but i got up considerably early for me. my little brother woke me up today, and we just started being retarded and having fun. mainly with me picking on him and some accidental hits, but i was half asleep....well, not really but come on. he was bored and i was woken up by him. i completely forgot my dream last night. this has been happening very frequently ever since summer before i started junior high. before i could always remember my dream for the rest of the day. it started to unsettle me for a couple months, but then i disregarded it once i found out it was normal. but it kinda saddened me to become "normal." of course, i don't want to be cast out as an outsider, but i don't want to be another boring face in the crowd. *sighs* but then....where did the crowd come from? it's made up of people, and so, i've been thinking lately that i might as well, because before standing out from the crowd, there must be one in the first place. or is it that people have started to think for themselves (well, some) and now the crowd is getting smaller and smaller until it doesn't exist anymore and becomes an instictive social fear? or is it the opposite? what with everyone copying everyone else, and the original people being exolted as godly beings. i'm not sure anymore. i've lived a pretty sheltered life, and i've lived in a suburb for all my life, and i have gotten out. the thing is that i've "gotten out" to places that are called tourist sites. the only connections with me and the "real world" is the internet and t.v. sometimes my parents and teachers say things, but that's rarely. everyone else seems to know what's going on everywhere, and i'm left out since although i can use the internet, how can i search something like that? well, before i knew of it. and i'm too lazy to always keep up to date with everything. i guess this is mainly my fault why i'm so naive. i wonder if this is normal of young teenagers....

i had another weird dream last night.
at first, i was rollarblading all around the school, looking for my backpack and violin case. it was kind fun, the rollar blading. the weird thing was that i didn't know what school it was, and my "friends" were people i never saw before. i was freaked out since i couldn't find my stuff. then something else happened and i vaguely remember showering for some reason. and then, suddenly, i was packing to go to an arabian school, and my dad was reviewing on what i should do and what i will do when i get there. it felt like we were planning this for a while, and i rememeber feeling really sad. hm.....oh well. i've had a whole buncha others like this anyway. only without so much people.....